I Don't Walk On Water...

I'm sure you've heard the latest scandal regarding Olympian Michael
Phelps and the pictures of his use of a marijuana bong at some college
party. As expected, America is up in arms about it - after all, this is
Michael Phelps, our American hero. Now, in regards to Phelps part of me
wants to say this is just some White kid who happens to swim really
well. Nothing more, nothing less. Then another part of me remembers
the old phrase ''to whom much is given much is expected''.

So I'm torn with his role to us, the public at large. However, I suppose it wasn't
his fault he's been rewarded with insane amounts of money all from
people seeking to profit from the attention he brings. I blame our
country for putting this kid on a pedestal just because he swims well
and then make an uproar when we realize he's not a hero, but just some
young kid who may or may not be that bright. A kid who is bound to make
decisions good and bad in his young life. The only difference is his
choices wind up on the covers of magazines and news channels for mass
consumption. I think my final thought about him is that he should be
able to do whatever he wants to do. After all, if you're gonna be a
hero of mine I want you to be authentic. I don't want that fake stuff.

Speak on it...

I'm producing and directing a series of one-act plays!! I am officially in pre-production in turning four of my short film screenplays into stageplays. I'm really excited and finally feel like I'm making steps to step back into my "career". I start casting actors soon. I haven't thought of a name for my play as I need something that will tie all of the stories together. I'll keep you posted.

I hope you still feel small
when you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes
I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith
A fighting chance
And when you get the choice
To sit it out or dance
I hope you dance

I recently sat through a screening of Tyler Perry's "A Family That Preys". Neglecting the fact that that film was two hours of my life I will never get back, there was a nice surprise at the end. Gladys Knight was featured at the end doing a remake of Lee Ann Womack's "I Hope You Dance". I've loved this song for years and now Gladys has done an amazing reading of it. Every time I hear a version of the song, I get chills. For some reason the message in it resonates with me every single time. It's a well-written song and probably would be my favorite song ever. The soundtrack for "A Family That Preys" hasn't been released but I did find the Gladys Knight version that someone ripped for Youtube. Check it out:

night falls and i'm calling out your name
and you're
right where i want you to be
tears turn to stars in my eyes
and your
love is an old mystery...

superlover
i wonder
does every other lover
in the world
make each other feel
the way you make me feel?

by labelle

Last night I bought this documentary on iTunes called "On the Downlow". It's fairly new and was definitely an interesting watch. It reminded me of a lot of dudes from my college years and in some places, reminded me of myself, years ago. Anyway, an aspect of it got me to thinking. There was this thug dude who had a girlfriend but also slept with "femme queens" and drag queens. He was talking about how he thinks his girlfriend knows about him because in a big argument she called him all kinds of faggots. He then later said how he and his girl got back together and now live together. He have advice to all the people on the DL to tell their female partners, especially when it came to their health. Then he proceeds to say, "My girl will never find out that stuff from me. She would have to find out some other way." Total contradiction, right?

I was talking to my homegirl last night and told her that that's one of the main reasons why I'm reluctant, maybe even a little afraid, to become sexually active again. I have a friend now, and he already knows that we won't be getting busy for a long time. lol. But, I'm feeling like even after trust is established, their is still a risk it'll be broken. Even when monogamy is established there is still a risk. The situation I'm in now is shaping up to be my first "mature relationship". I had previously taken a break from all relationships early in college; a break that turned into almost four years of no dating activity whatsoever.

Damn. I feel so nervous. My last "best friend" really brought a lot of trust issues, I didn't know I had. I don't know when I'll be ready to be totally sexually active. I'm not even sure I'm ready for this new "relationship". But, I'm 25 now. Aren't I too old to be scared???

I love this show. It originally aired on HBO but was cancelled after one season. I have to buy the DVD, though. Lisa Kudrow was hilarious in it. I'm not fan of Friends, but Lisa Kudrow is hella funny and is one of my favorites along with Debra Messing, Megan Mullaly and Kathy Griffin. Watch this clip from Youtube:



LMAO at:

"I turned down the lead in a TV movie about a woman who gets raped by the whole town. But it deals with abortion and...I don't want to go anywhere near that! Plus, it's shot in Nova Scotia, you know. Get raped all day and then nowhere nice to have dinner..."

Funny ish.